Your so close to me and yet so far away. All i want to do is hug kiss and cuddle you :/ and i cant bare this gut wrenching feeling. I havent seen you in weeks and you took my breath away when i saw you stood at the door. I hope your feelings for me are still there somewhere in your heart. Love you.
I dont know how long its going to take for this crushing feeling inside to fade. Altho im not sure if i want it to fade either, it reminds me how much i love her. I do think i need to grit my teeth and ride this out tho i have to be strong keep my composure. Shes with him now and theres not alot i can do. She never said we would never be together again but i dont know how much heartahce i can take. I miss her so much.
all i want is for you to let me show you how amazing things can be.
but you need to let me do that you need to trust me. you love me that’s all you should need to see that you can trust me.
i won’t let you down.
I cant bare the thought of her being in bed with someone else when we belong together. I think about her every second of every day. Before i go to sleep and as soon as i wake up. I have a constant knott in my stomach thinking that were not together. I love you.
I wake up check my facebook to find she is in a relationship with someone else. im heartbroken Ill wait for you and when he fucks up i WILL be there
Caring
Loving
Genuine
those three LETTERS are the world to me.
this love feeling i’ve never had it before and all i have felt is hurt, confusion. i have no idea where i stand.
i’m not going to lie before i realised how i felt, when times were good they were amazing and now i look back i think all those little things that i wanted to do for her like piking her up from work at stupid o’clock in the morning and just cuddling in bed just looking at her and how beautiful she is that was when i should have realised i love her. i should have told her everyday how i felt and showed her but no i was so caught up in hiding behind these ‘walls’ that i couldn’t see that i was loosing her.
now i feel like shes slipping through my fingers and there’s nothing i can do about it.
the more i try the more i push her away. but i can’t back off i can’t do that
i’m so scared.
I cant bare this much longer shit just keeps cropping up. I have no idea what i need to do. I need to know :/
You worked your way in through my barriers that i have had up for years and found my switch where i control my feelings. you turned it on without me even knowing and then took a sledgehammer to it so it couldn’t be turned off. now i have all these feelings for you and i have to tell you because i feel you’ll forget about me if i don’t. i couldn’t take it if you forgot how you felt about me.
The thing is, that switch that i cant turn off now. I don’t want to turn it off, i want to love you as much as i can and it grows everyday. i hope you can see how much i love you because i don’t know how else to tell you than the way i do.
i need you to trust me again. i know i messed up to breaking point for you but i have learnt my lesson ill never do anything to hurt you again. i just need to trust me.
the only thing i want and the only thing i care about is you.
i love you.
